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[Reply] #44,841
09-11-2016 10:59 PM
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i like to think that everyone deserves to be happy. so why can’t i believe that i do? i feel that i don’t deserve it.

i’ve cut out a lot of my old friends from my life. i find no emotional solace in my family. the worst parts are when i’m alone with my thoughts. then i have literally nowhere to turn.

i fell in love with a woman in the course of one week, and she obviously didn’t. or maybe i’m just saying that, because i’d rather she outright reject me than consider the possibility that she might actually reciprocate and then raise my hopes only to crush them again.

i don’t think about killing myself. but i have fleeting thoughts of a quiet death. i’m afraid to hurt. if i were to die, i would like it to be in my sleep. i’m scared of pain, but not death. is that bad? am i doomed? am i depressed? am i even right in asking if i am? what if i’m one of those fakers who just pretend to say that for the attention?

my emotional support system is gone. that’s why i’m here now. it’s been a while since i’ve been able to really honestly express my feelings like this. it feels good, but i still feel really bad.

i’m so fucking lonely. will anyone please speak to me

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09-16-2016 03:26 AM
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Abandoned in illness
Widowed
Orphaned by 45
No kids
No family
No friends really
No animals bc of illness
No job bc of illness
No dating bc of illness
God be with me... You’re the only one who has been

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09-16-2016 04:45 PM
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I’m sorry to hear about how your illness is hampering your life and I’m sorry to hear that you feel so lonely.

But please don’t give up. Just because nobody’s been there for you in the past doesn’t mean that nobody will be there for you in the future.

Okay, so the cards you’re dealt with at the moment aren’t looking so great: no animals, no job and no relationships because of your illness. You were even abandoned because of your illness. Just know that you’re better off without that person because if they didn’t have the strength of character to stand by your side in sickness and in health then they were never worth having by your side in the first place.

And having no job and no animals by your side isn’t the end of the world either. Plenty of people without these two things who manage to enjoy their lives much more than others who have great jobs, busy lives, and loads of material possessions. The things you own don’t define you.

And always remember, there are people out there who care. Me, for example. And there will be plenty of others too, so long as you reach out and you make sure that you try your best with the cards that you’ve been dealt with.

And if it gets tough at times, almost to the point where you feel you cannot take any more: you’ve got to listen to that inner voice that refuses to give up. For that’s where you’re going to find the strength to push through to better times.

And I promise you, they will come. But only if you believe they will.

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09-16-2016 05:05 PM
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tobiass wrote: i like to think that everyone deserves to be happy. so why can’t i believe that i do? i feel that i don’t deserve it.



You don’t feel you deserve it because you’ve spent so much time thinking negative thoughts. So that every thought you have about yourself is tainted with this negativity.

The truth is you do deserve to be happy. In exactly the same way that you believe others deserve to.

tobiass wrote:
i’ve cut out a lot of my old friends from my life. i find no emotional solace in my family. the worst parts are when i’m alone with my thoughts. then i have literally nowhere to turn.



It sounds like you’re sad about cutting out your old friends. But what’s done is done. If you can mend bridges, do so. If you can’t, then move on. I assure you that you’ll meet new people who you will be able to find emotional solace in.

And if you’re finding it tough to be alone with your thoughts, then do something to take your mind off them. Literally.

tobiass wrote:
i fell in love with a woman in the course of one week, and she obviously didn’t. or maybe i’m just saying that, because i’d rather she outright reject me than consider the possibility that she might actually reciprocate and then raise my hopes only to crush them again.



You think you fell in love with a women in the course of one week. The truth is it’s impossible to do so and what you misinterpreted for love was simply an escape from the miserable thoughts you endure day in day out.

So don’t take it personally that she didn’t reciprocate. Even if she really, really liked you, she wouldn’t reciprocate in the same way because, well... people simply don’t fall in love during the course of a week. I mean you’re not even telling us that something happened between the two of you, so I’m assuming it didn’t. In which case you need to wake up to the realisation that falling in love so quickly will always set you up for heartbreak.

No matter who you are.

tobiass wrote:
i don’t think about killing myself. but i have fleeting thoughts of a quiet death. i’m afraid to hurt. if i were to die, i would like it to be in my sleep. i’m scared of pain, but not death. is that bad? am i doomed? am i depressed? am i even right in asking if i am? what if i’m one of those fakers who just pretend to say that for the attention?



No. No. Yes. Yes. And who cares?

tobiass wrote:
my emotional support system is gone. that’s why i’m here now. it’s been a while since i’ve been able to really honestly express my feelings like this. it feels good, but i still feel really bad.



You’re on your journey towards the light, my friend.

You’ll feel good more often, and bad less often. Slowly, slowly. Until one day you’ll be able to honestly express your feelings all the time. And those feelings will feel great. :-)

tobiass wrote:
i’m so fucking lonely. will anyone please speak to me



You always know where I am.

Good luck, compadre.

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09-16-2016 05:27 PM
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Whale wrote: I just moved to college, and I have never felt so alone. I just finished orientation where it seemed everyone made friends but me. I am not in a dorm room alone for a week until my roommates come, and I’m dreading them coming. I was never really lonely. I always tended to have a lot of friends, but loose friendships, more so quantity over quality. Still, I know no one currently, and I feel like the majority of the people around my college are simply not my type of people. We have vastly different interests, and I simply do not get along with them. I really miss home, my friends, my high school, and my family. The only positive thing from orientation was that I got a girl’s number, and she texted me a bit, but when I asked her out, she didn’t even reply. I really just miss home and want to go home, I feel incredibly lonely out here, anyone care to help?



I’ll help you, my friend. And I’ll start by telling you that what you are feeling is perfectly normal for people just starting college/university.

You’re going from a familiar scenario into a completely unfamiliar one. And trust me, almost everybody in your position feels like the majority of people around them are not their type. And the ones that look like they’re getting along... wait... give it a few months and see how many of them will still be hanging around with each other.

One thing you’ll soon notice is that a lot of their friendships were only started because, like you, they were scared shitless and they were prepared to speak to and hang out with anybody just so that they wouldn’t be alone. At least you had the guts to be true to yourself and not strike up one of these false, short-lived friendships.

You managed to get a girl’s number, so you know that you can at least meet somebody at college. But you do know what you did wrong, didn’t you? You asked her out via a text and you did so way too early.

What you should have done is kept on texting her to the point where meeting up again, in a non-committed way, would have been a logical progression. You could have then asked her out in person and you would not had to have faced the possibility that she would have given you the silent treatment.

Let this be a lesson, and as cruel as this may seem, life’s going to have plenty of lessons in store for you, so suck them up, keep your head up, stay positive, and remember what the internet rebel always says: what you’re feeling right now isn’t real. It’s an illusion. The road ahead contains many special moments way beyond even your wildest imaginations. Just have faith in this and I promise you: it will come to pass.

Best of luck.

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09-16-2016 05:36 PM
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In all honesty I do have drinking problem. It’s cost me a job, a lot of shame. But I’ve always had problems reaching out to people sober, or even dealing life. I’m high functioning ASD, when I drank I don’t care. My dad is an alcoholic, always has been, my mom has the same social problems I do.

The only saving quality I have is that I’m in good shape, and freakishly intelligent. That’s why I stay in school, or why school has been easier for me to be consistently engaged in. Because unlike a job I can just study and ignore people, not have to deal with people. Because drinking turns me into an asshole. I really I didn’t alcohol to deal with people. Because it doesn’t really helpy behavior, it just helps me open up. If I could open up without alcohol, does anyone have any advice?


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09-16-2016 05:49 PM
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I drink every day. I go into this psychotic state and post here. Was dragged out on an imbolence after downing a pint of whiskey and stealing some beers and blacking out and fighting a bouncer and being thrown out the bar, puking my guts out. I had alcohol poisoning. Done every narcotic under the sun. Been using alcohol to study, been put in rehab. Totalled a car. This list goes on.

Me hacking this site was during a two day drinking binge. Alcohol and my ASDs unique effect on me work together manifest in some crazy strange behavior and thoughts. Psychosis.

Alcohol usually kills brain cells, but Autism spectrum disorder, at my heightened functioning, actually makes brain cells replenish, in the part of the brain responsible for logic, faster than in neural typicals. So I don’t experience those effects academically. The increased size ofvthevlogic brain is one of the reasonsvi can’t experience meditation without psychedelics that are potent than weed. And under those drugs meditation is useless pointless.

Aside from my socio-mental illness, especially the stupid shit I do and say when I’m, my lack of responsibility, abusiveness, the shameful way I conduct myself, etc...I’m Einstein level intellect, theres been plenty of these, isaac newton, stephen hawking, but no one who can also handle himself in a fight. That combination has never been seen before. Idk why super geniuses aren’t also able to fight, I’m the exception.


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09-21-2016 09:11 AM
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Not only that I’m an alcoholic for communication to fight my agoraphobia, I seem to be unable to function academically (progress in my caucasian, culturally western, free-ranged education) in a sober state.

I have a premise: not all ASDs suffer from relative increase in nerves relative to the logical mind with a translatable decrease if nerves/neurons/synpaptic fluidity of the social regions: but one at least can access or discard the individual benefits or disadvantages of an adaptation (Pervasive [altered] learning disorder), I’d consume advantages from retardation (rain man), autism (Einstein), OCD, demonic (demonic possession) synesthesia (Daniel Tammet learning the most difficult of languages in weeks), dissacociated personality disorder (amnesia, potentially split into endless personae), paranoia (see; Alexander of Macedonia, Kubla Khan, etc.), schizophrenia (hallucinations that caused Constantine to fall prey to religion), autism, and an infinite number of Godly defects that give and take (if I may inconsideralety say so) can all manifest simultaneously into one who has an “improvement”, an accelerated (divinely so) Central Nervous System...heightened sensory perception (any area of cognition, and even athletics [the Olympics]) Without any defects at all.

In me, the enemies of totalitarian democracy, freely-open-source (in both resources & knowledge) technocracy: the self-centeted polyarchical powers that be, may have met their match.

So stop bickering with my promise of total muscle viscerality & and beauty in a thread such as this. I only speak the truth. One day, I will build The Utopia. It will prevail over “National Superpowers” in the way Zero One did over all of humanity upon outperforming them in product: in the Animatrix...


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Solitude and isolation, self-discovery, and the scientific search for knowledge, the spiritual pursuit of God, or the plane old universal search for truth: this is not so bad of a reason for loneliness, it’s the path I’ve taken.


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To have any intellect or reason, one must practice acceptance of differences, serenity, emotional fortitude, resolve, willpower, joy, a self-defined honest sense of right and wrong, adaptability, endurance, and patience.


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[Reply] #44,851
09-23-2016 11:46 PM
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Hi everyone! This thread makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. Thank you to all the strangers of the internet who can actually say something to make you feel better. I’m one of those people who needs to talk to someone constantly, but also feels bad about bombarding friends with my problems. And often I find that my friends aren’t that great of friends, at least when I really need them. I guess I just have a heightened sense of emotion. Anyway, hope to hear from someone. Technology has a knack for pushing most people apart but also bringing some closer together.

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So the great internet rebel has plenty of advice. Cept when it comes to someone who isn’t faking.

Fuck you people. Mocking people who actually have problems.

Lol, IDC.


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Edited 09-25-2016 01:11 AM by Haderach
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10-01-2016 03:54 PM
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Wow, this is still going? I remember it on another site in about 2006. It’s a little miracle, really. I know not all of you reading this will believe me, but you’re not alone. I’ve been there, I thought I was the only one who was this lonely. There are people out there who will see your messages. Even if they don’t know what to say, they will read them and they will care. Just realising that helped me. I hope it helps some of you.

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Haderach wrote: So the great internet rebel has plenty of advice. Cept when it comes to someone who isn’t faking.

Fuck you people. Mocking people who actually have problems.

Lol, IDC.



Better stop throwing your toys out of the pram there, Haderach.

If I’m not on here giving you advice, that means for some reason I am unable to.

I’ve been on this website since 2005 giving people advice. I’ve spoken to people far and wide with issues that even I never knew existed, yet you’re getting mad at me because I take a break for a week or so and don’t reply to your posts with immediate effect?

On top of that you sometimes go endlessly posting mindless nonsense and hijack the entire thread with your personal issues, before insulting other posters about their issues, and then you have the audacity to claim others are doing the mocking?!

Herein lies the challenge you face in your quest to find inner peace: HOW TO STOP BEING SO REACTIVE.

Take time to think about the situation, give others the benefit of the doubt, be slow to anger... These are good qualities that you would do well to give a try from time to time.

I really shouldn’t humour you with a response to your problems, but being that I’ve been doing it for so long, and being that the internet rebel knows exactly who you are, I thought why not?

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10-03-2016 05:45 AM
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Haderach wrote:
In all honesty I do have drinking problem. Itís cost me a job, a lot of shame. But Iíve always had problems reaching out to people sober, or even dealing life. Iím high functioning ASD, when I drank I donít care. My dad is an alcoholic, always has been, my mom has the same social problems I do.



So you want to go repeating their mistakes? Are you going to accept any of the responsibility yourself or would you like to always chalk it up to your genetics?


Haderach wrote:
The only saving quality I have is that Iím in good shape, and freakishly intelligent. Thatís why I stay in school, or why school has been easier for me to be consistently engaged in. Because unlike a job I can just study and ignore people, not have to deal with people. Because drinking turns me into an asshole. I really I didnít alcohol to deal with people. Because it doesnít really helpy behavior, it just helps me open up. If I could open up without alcohol, does anyone have any advice?



I’ll give you the best advice you’re ever going to hear on this subject: Quit drinking. Now.

The only way you are going to learn to open up without alcohol is to teach yourself how to do it the hard way. That means stopping the drinking and making a concerted effort to deal with life, and not just interactions with other people, from a sober mindset.

It’s not going to be easy, I’ll tell you that now. In fact, it’ll begin with every fibre of your being telling you it’s hopeless to even try. But that’s the illusion... Because if you want it bad enough, you can open up to people just fine without alcohol. And I don’t care who you are or how much you’ve drank: that’s a fact. Take it day by day and make a concerted effort to interact with people sober, and try to improve every interaction as time goes by.

In the meanwhile, lose the big head if you want to engage with people without them wishing to depart your company.

I’m always dubious about people who claim freakish intelligence. I’m dubious in the same way about people who claim they are freakishly strong/tough. I mean, if you are these things, why do you need to go around constantly advertising it to all and sundry? Isn’t it exhausting?

If you can see the benefits that your skills brings to the table, then great - keep it to yourself. I’m telling you now that saying these things to the average person is going to have them running a mile. So take from that what you will.



Haderach wrote:
I drink every day. I go into this psychotic state and post here. Was dragged out on an imbolence after downing a pint of whiskey and stealing some beers and blacking out and fighting a bouncer and being thrown out the bar, puking my guts out. I had alcohol poisoning. Done every narcotic under the sun. Been using alcohol to study, been put in rehab. Totalled a car. This list goes on.




And will continue to go on and on until you put an end to it.

Stop putting dangerous substances into your body as the next time you may not be so lucky...


Haderach wrote:
Me hacking this site was during a two day drinking binge. Alcohol and my ASDs unique effect on me work together manifest in some crazy strange behavior and thoughts. Psychosis.



Well done. You hacked this site. Nobody cares except you.

Haderach wrote:
Alcohol usually kills brain cells, but Autism spectrum disorder, at my heightened functioning, actually makes brain cells replenish, in the part of the brain responsible for logic, faster than in neural typicals. So I donít experience those effects academically. The increased size ofvthevlogic brain is one of the reasonsvi canít experience meditation without psychedelics that are potent than weed. And under those drugs meditation is useless pointless.

Aside from my socio-mental illness, especially the stupid shit I do and say when Iím, my lack of responsibility, abusiveness, the shameful way I conduct myself, etc...Iím Einstein level intellect, theres been plenty of these, isaac newton, stephen hawking, but no one who can also handle himself in a fight. That combination has never been seen before. Idk why super geniuses arenít also able to fight, Iím the exception.




Again, it’s talk like this that makes people want to switch off. Listen pal, you’re neither the most intelligent nor the toughest, nor are you the most intelligent and simultaneously toughest person to ever live on this planet. Not by a long shot.

Learn some humility. And while you’re at it, recognise that this genius is coming on a website forum to seek advice on personal problems he cannot solve. Oh how the irony of your actions defies your words.


Haderach wrote:
To have any intellect or reason, one must practice acceptance of differences, serenity, emotional fortitude, resolve, willpower, joy, a self-defined honest sense of right and wrong, adaptability, endurance, and patience.




This is the wisest thing I think you’ve ever said. It’s just a shame you don’t take your own advice. Although please let me know when you’ve figured out how poisoning your body with alcohol and narcotics fits into all of the above.



So there you have it. Looks like the internet rebel does still have plenty of advice. Now the big question is: are you going to take it?

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I’m so sorry, sorry for everyone I made go thru this with me. I’ll clean up my act. I’m just gonna function on weed from now on. And not whiskey.


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Cause the WWC system.

Whiskey weed cocaine.


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the internet rebel wrote:

Although please let me know when you’ve figured out how poisoning your body with alcohol and narcotics fits into all of the above.

No doubt, I’m sure you been there. I’m sure you done all kinds a shit during your time in south american trying to end all the violence down and mayhem there what back when Pablo was fighting with search bloc and los Pepe’s. You come across as that kind of heroic individual

I just came to you for help because you’ve helped so many people in this thread. I could tell you were wise beyind your ears


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kys wrote: get a life fags


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lonely wrote: please will anyone speak to about anything to me

are you a girl

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